Well it’s finally happened. After viewing quite a few properties we finally found one that we both loved last Friday. It’s literally just down the road from where we live now but it offers us so much more family space and a much bigger garden for the boys.
We’d been waiting about three weeks to view the house as the vendors were on holiday (in some rather exotic places) so we’d been swooning over the pictures on Rightmove for a little while. While it needs to have our stamp put on it, it’s in every way perfect for us to move into. So what does this mean?
It means we’ll be packing up our house and leaving behind some of the most incredible memories. We knew this was never going to be our forever home, we just knew it was right for us at the time, but that doesn’t mean I’m not going to miss it like crazy. It’s weird to think that in a few months we won’t live here anymore, that other people will be living in ‘our’ house. It’s hard to process that we’ll never be able to put the front key in the door and open it whenever we like. That we’ll never put another Christmas tree up here, we’ll never bring another baby home here, we’ll never hear the boys ramming their bikes and scooters into the side gate anymore – mm, ok, maybe I won’t miss that bit!
One thing we never ever had here was Christmas day. We have, for the last five years, spent it at Jamie’s parents house and we never once opened our presents here. Maybe this year will be different. This year we will have space to entertain, this year people can be our guests.
It makes me sad to think that, while this is the best decision for us a family, that the boys might not remember this as their first home. I’m sure that when we move they’ll know something is different but kids adapt don’t they? They process things pretty quickly and they’ll soon accept that the new house is our house. Our home. At the same time, I wonder if they’ll miss this home. The only home they’ve ever known, being moved from their bedrooms, having ‘their’ garden taken away despite the fact they’ll have a new area with lots more space to play in, it all just makes me a little bit sad.
This house really was the beginning of us and the making of our family and I will be gutted to leave it behind. It’s so special to me, to us and I’ll never forget it. I want to leave something behind here, and I also want to take something with us, other than our belongings; a two way memento. Aside from making more memories here and soaking them all up, I’m also going to be vlogging a little house tour so that we have a nice little video memory of the whole place as it is now.
I kind of feel like I’m saying goodbye to a family member, but there are bigger and better things out there for our family. I know this is the right thing for us but it doesn’t make me any less sad. Soon it’ll be goodbye number 16 and hello number 5.